Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in caramelmusiq's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
Tuesday, October 11th, 2005 @ 12:59am	lets see...today wasn't anything special. I had a full day of classes (dance, acting, racial justice, & musical comp) but, b4 musical comp i got a horrible sinus headache. I went to the class but just long enough to take the exam & leave. Back to the room i went to watch the Incredibles which meant it watched me & i took a nap. When Kimmy got back we went to Fashion show auditions, food, then back to Pearce for Day 2 of Coming Out Week. Today's program cosisted of a panel of gay/straight/alliance/adults/students who answered questions regarding coming out, helping others come out, who to turn to, etc. Once we got back i headed to Ethan's to watch Nip/Tuck (BEST SHOW EVER!!! Tuesdays @ 10 on F/X) I worked on hw while he took pictures of me for his photography class which is cool but kind of awkward. I just had to keep doin my thing & he took pictures....i dont know how they turned out b/c i didnt ask to see them. Now i'm back in the 2.1.5 doing nothing. i'm having a difficult time sleeping again like the 1st month here. It had gotten better for a while but, i've never slept through the night here. I guess the only place i've ever REALLY slept through the night is @ home b/c even @ Derrick's i wake up constantly. But that could be b/c of his snoring.....j/k. Actually i think i wake up to check on him, i dont know what it is but i'm up @least 4 or 5 times & i roll over to look @ him & see if he's ok....i guess that's weird but i  dont know how to change it. Whatever...i'm a weird kid & i'm ok with it. Tomorrow should be decent: work out, voice, classes, Hispanic Month Speaker, 5 Women Play..... & it's 1 more day till I go home!!! It's been about 4 weeks since i've seen home so its time to be with my dogs & the fam. Good Night! Current Mood: tired Current Music: Kissing you-Des'ree
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Monday, October 10th, 2005
Monday, October 10th, 2005 @ 1:12am	so finishing what i was writing before: I'm tired of feeling alone but, i cant ask my parents to pay full tuition some where else. So that means i am here to stay & i should just deal with it. It wasnt until i got to school that i realized how much i miss my fam & my baby....i got to spend the whole summer wit them (even Jason was home) & now its just me. I can deal with bein just me but, its like i dont really have ppl to lean on. I've got E & Kimmy who are close but not a lot of others who i feel like i can REALLY talk to. Plus sometimes its difficult to talk to Kimmy cuz she doesnt like it up here either so she is on her phone wit BB & Erica & her boo a lot.
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Monday, October 10th, 2005 @ 12:54am	So i FINALLY  decided to start a new LJ. I'm back @ Central for another fun filled year in the hole (aka Mt. P). I guess i thought this year would be better because Kimmy is my roommate & i would do theater and blah blah blah, but no that is not the case. i'm more lonely than ever i'm taking 19 credit hours everyone i care about isnt here i can't seem to make myself happy here My life consists of going to classes, working out, doing hw, maybe chillin wit ppl other than kimmy for a lil while, then back to the room for the rest of the night. I feel like i dont have a purpose! Most ppl have a job or are part of shit & i'm not. I dont want to give the directors another reason not to give me a part so i dont do many extracurriculars in order to avoid conflicts w/ rehearsals. So as of right now i'm not in any shows & im bored to pieces. The only up side is that im in the best shape of my life cuz ALL i do is work out. It sucks that i dislike it so much that i'm only on campus for about 3 days: 1/2 of Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, & 1/2 of Thursday. I know it sounds pathetic but there is NOTHING  to do here on weekends & thats when i'm the most lonely. Plus i'm tryin to make a relationship work, Derrick is the one person i want to spend the rest of my life with. & it doesnt hurt that i love to go to State to be with him, i have the best time! We go out with the team on Saturday & his roommates are ppl either he or i graduated high school with. Current Mood: restless Current Music: ColdPlay_Rush of Blood to the Head
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